As I’ve learned more and journeyed farther this summer, not only have I gotten freer, but I’ve started paying attention to the things I say. Over and over, it seems I don’t speak in a way that is uplifting and positive. So, I’ve starting actually thinking a little bit more before I speak. Okay, so this doesn’t work all the time. There are lots of times when I think back and wish I could have said things differently, or more often, not said anything at all. But I’ve tried to stop saying, “I can’t….” and I’ve tried to speak things into my own life, and into my children’s lives, that are positive and that claim the promises given to us in the Bible. I’m reading a book called, What You Say is What You Get by Don Gossett. And no, it’s not a “pray for a fast car or lots of money and get it” kind of book. It’s about the words we say and the impact that they have on our life. Do I speak words of life? Or do I speak death? Do my words line up with God’s truth? I find that often my words lack faith. I know that when I speak in the name of Yeshua I carry the weight and authority of Yeshua to enforce His rule and reign, but I struggle to really believe that I have that authority. And the one who doubts is like a leaf blown and tossed by the wind. How do I finally believe what I know to be true? I desire a revelation of understanding that penetrates deep into my heart and doesn’t just sit on the surface. Oh, for childlike faith where nothing is impossible and everything brings delight and wonder.
Leviticus 8:35 Basically this verse says that Aaron and his sons had to stay at the entrance to the tabernacle for 7 days and do whatever God told them to do. If they didn’t they would die. That’s pretty serious… I suppose though, that they were to be the spiritual leaders of Israel so it was imperative that they be able to recognize God’s voice when He spoke to them. So, if they failed the test during their initiation into the priesthood, they died. At least, that’s how it seems to me. I don’t think I’d pass that test! So often I feel like I have no idea if I’m hearing God or if I’m hearing something else – like my desires or thoughts. I know people say that if I spend time in God’s Word I’ll learn to hear His voice… but I’m still pretty clueless. I guess I have some idea of some things that I get while reading, but are there people who audibly hear His voice? That I’d like to know. I think it would be amazing to hear His voice… but maybe that would be too much. Did He speak more clearly to people back then?