I couple of random thoughts: 1. I loved it how, yesterday, when John called to set up an appointment for Gavin to meet with Pastor Steve, the lady was so matter of fact and said (regarding his lack of speech), “Well, we can take care of that!” She put him on the prayer list and the morning group list. I love women with a sword! 2. I spent time out at this lake near where we live and had some time to pray and read. It was nice. Kinda sunny because the sun was going down and was right in my eyes, but it was nice and quiet. I think I might do that more often. 3. I feel like I’ve just started school again. I started reading some books on spiritual warfare and began to realize just how much there is to learn. I don’t know if my calling is to battle in the same way that John’s is, but I do know that, as his wife, I am to support him. And to do that, I need to know what’s going on. A dear friend, Susan, once told me I was a psalmist. I don’t know what that means, but I ran across an interesting statement in one of the books about how David (THE psalmist) would play for Saul and the evil spirits would leave (in his case they came right back later, but it was a temporary reprieve). I can’t play (yet), but I can write. If you pray, here’s what I’m praying for: 1. Discernment – I want to see more clearly and hear more clearly. I want to be able to discern truth from lies. 2. My purpose – I’m still not sure what my role is in all of this. I know that I am called to raise my children and that I love words, web design, technology, and helping teachers teach better. And music. And once upon a time I liked to read. And organize (but not papers – sooooo tedious). 3. Revelation – I want to know God deeper than ever before. I am still very confused about who He is (personal vs. communal, loving vs. vengeful, interested in me vs. interested in the “Big Plan”) and how I fit into His family (red-headed step child who was adopted, beloved child, bride of Christ – but isn’t that Israel?, peon who is part of a vast kingdom,…). Into this category falls understanding this whole spiritual warfare thing. 4. Financial breakthrough – whether it’s warfare, a generational curse, bad luck, or just life, it would be nice to not have to be scraping by every month. It would be nice to be able to save a little money so we don’t have to live paycheck-to-paycheck. It would be nice to have a place of our own. It would be nice to be able to afford Christmas presents for our boys without wondering how to pay for them.
